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Friday October 1, 2004: Lucid Dream Puzzle

           Twenty years ago, I thought I had lucid dreaming down to an art.  I could maintain consciousness for days on end, slipping right from a waking reality into the dream state and back to waking state without ever entering an unconscious sleep cycle. I could stop dreams to puzzle out ways to rearrange events or props (symbols) within the dreams; I could interact with other lucid dreamers to either share information or offer assistance; or enter higher states of consciousness from within the dream state.

             It was great while it lasted, but I gave it all up. I got married and started a family, and the idea of lucid dreaming was put to one side as broken nights of sleep evolved into exhaustion -- with me collapsing into unconsciousness every time my head hit the pillow. It was not until almost the end of my marriage that I once again began programming the dream state, desperate to find answers. I didn't particularly like the answers to why our marriage was in trouble, and was still programming to find ways to fix the problem when events in the everyday world made me realize the need to get myself and the children out -- quick.

             Suddenly, I became a single parent with three small boys, working a full time job (an hour from our house), and needing to handle house, homework, and heartbreaks when I entered the back door; I began another fatigue period (this time with the official medical stamp of chronic fatigue syndrome).  It would be almost five years until all our lives were stabilized and I once again could try programming for lucid dreams.

             Ah, but so much time had passed; I'd had any number of meditative and mystical encounters, had opened to significantly higher dimensions. Perhaps it was a matter of not being able to go back. I thought lucid dreaming would be a skill easy to reactivate, like riding a bike.  What occurred next was to be a puzzle I still have not solved.

           I went to bed programming that I would have more and more lucid dreams; I would increase my awareness with each dream; I would increase my control of the dreams themselves; I would retain the memory and be able to recall all the details upon awakening.  Two things became obvious in short order: the first was that every two to five days I would have a dream in which I awoke and clearly remembered being in an altered state, yet I could not recall any memory of what happened; the second was that my watch began losing time -- exactly ten minutes per episode, only at night.  The watch remained dead-on accurate during the daytime.  Enough episodes and I realized there was a correlation between when I had these blank memories of lucid dreams and when my watch lost time. 

             I focused more attention on my programming, putting more effort into remembering events when I awoke.  Nothing worked.  I would awake with only that awareness that I had been in a definite altered state during dreaming.  My watch began losing larger chunks of time.  Instead of losing ten minutes, I might lose twenty or thirty minutes -- always in precise increments of ten minutes.  It made no sense.

             I called Dr. Richard Gerber (author of VIBRATIONAL MEDICINE). I'd known Richard when he was a med student and interested in integrating parapsychology into medicine.  He had an amazing memory for recalling every article and book he'd ever read, and when I knew him, he had quite a library on parapsychology.  I called to ask if he'd ever read about a similar problem. It became obvious as we talked that Richard had narrowed his focus (understandably) to those subjects that might be integrated into his practice. The best he could offer was a suggestion that perhaps I was altering the time field around myself.

             That idea terrified me.  I could accept a lot of strange realities by this point in my life, but the idea that I might be altering time was a definite freak-out!! It scared me enough that I decided to set up experiments to prove or disprove Richard's theory.

            I tossed around the possibility of some biological reaction (skin sweating?) which in some way affected the watch. I pulled out an old waterproof watch I'd bought years ago for a vacation trip -- two years of sitting in the drawer and the watch still kept perfect time.  I strapped on both watches at night and continued programming for lucid dreams. The next morning, the waterproof watch had lost ten minutes, while my regular watch had kept perfect time.  Confused, I eventually started recording the results on my calendar, hoping to find a pattern.

             Sometimes, nothing happened.  Sometimes one watch would lose time; sometimes, the other.  Sometimes both would lose the same amount of time. One morning I awoke at 4:15 a.m. and checked the two watches against my alarm clock -- perfect time.  At 5:00 a.m., when the alarm went off, I'd lost three minutes on one watch, seven minutes on the other. One morning I awoke a half hour late and was upset to discover the alarm button was still set and had just failed to go off.  I moved a back-up clock into the room, so that I was now going to bed with two watches and two clocks. "Heavens, Jan," I thought, "People will think you're becoming obsessed with time." Laughing at the notion, I continued the experiment....

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